Made it to Atheist

It has been a long road from being a sorrowful, scared grade schooler praying that a little girl he thought was cute would not go to hell because her family was Mormon, to a fearful father who was scared that his kids might go to hell if he screws up, to someone woken up by the Christian Right with their overwhelming support for the most craven human being who has ever been President of the United States. Overcoming such an early, terrifying indoctrination has not been easy.

Since being called ‘an agent of Satan,’ being accused ‘supporting the enemy,’ being told that I was ‘never one of us,’ that I’d just been hurt and ‘needed to get my life back on track,’ I’ve been buried in the scholarship concerning the ‘truth’ of Christianity. My conclusion is that not only is Christianity not true, but that it is not a positive social good that leads to better behavior. Christians who are honest, generous, and kind are so despite what the faith teaches. MAGA Christianity is anti-Christ yet it has a firm hold on the whole institution. Their talk of ‘truth’ is bullshit.

It is disturbing to watch Christians do the same old song and dance about how ‘God is moving,’ pretending that the whole racist, misogynist, anti-human shooting match has not descended into self-serving political depravity. The whole thing is about power, maintaining hierarchy, and defending the mountains of grift. The whole act about ‘God is telling me to tell you this or that’ is about submission and control. God, through his prophets, is telling the faithful to embrace as their only hope, their savior, a deranged, cruel, felonious, grifting con man and pathological liar. This is depraved. Christians who pretend that nothing is wrong are just as depraved because what they passively support is going to rain a whole lot of suffering on those who are not them. They are effectively saying, ‘(T)hose in Trump’s crosshairs are not our neighbors, fuck ‘em!’

The moment is here to stand against the death of democracy. The evil, supremely selfish, cruel man Christians support promises to turn the military against his enemies. That is just the start of it. The Christian fascists at the Heritage foundation will cover for and flatter their stooge to get what they want, a Christian Theocracy. Trump is just a useful, depraved idiot. The fact that Trump could win is truly astounding. Our hatred, cruelty, racism, and misogyny, our shame, our self-hatred, our subservience to grifters, our tolerance of lies, adds to the fact that our support of such a man signals a profound deficit in this nation’s collective mental health, moral conviction, and care for our fellow human beings. We could elect our very worst because we’ve been profoundly traumatized to do so as we’ve been taught that it is (supposedly) God’s Will.  I understand why white men would support a total asshole like Trump, but it makes me very sad to understand that millions of women have been so beat down by religious and cultural bullshit to support a predator. He is anything but a ‘protector.’ He is a rapist who hates women.

I get looks of hatred when I wear my Harris/Walz t-shirt. I’m controlled by demons as Christianity’s leaders say. Harris has a ‘Jezebel Spirit.’  This is today’s cruel spirit of Christianity. The arguments supporting these claims are pathetic as they only work if you accept that these charlatans indeed speak for the almighty. It’s a power play which sows division as we ‘otherize’ those who do not adhere to the charismatic, NAR (New Apostolic Reformation) inspired ‘Gospel.’ When your hero calls the ‘others,’ ‘vermin’ who are ‘poisoning the blood’ of our nation as ‘they’ carry ‘murder genes,’ as your savior has done, it makes violence all the easier to carry out violence against the ‘enemies of Christ’ (as the ‘doctrines of discovery’ emphasized.) This is literal Nazi talk which most evangelicals actively or passively support. As your chosen has said, it is going to be ‘bloody.’ Indeed.

Christian faith has deeply traumatized and taken so much from me. The politically dominant Christian Right is about to fuck this nation over big time as we are on the precipice of fascism (with a hearty embracing of threats and violence to accomplish their goals.) Remember the principle of reaping and sowing? If you sow hatred, cruelty, division and threats, what will we reap? Hatred, cruelty, division, and violence. Christians, you’ve lost your fucking minds, and your hearts have darkened to embrace evil as your ‘salvation.’ If you do this, all the blood and suffering which will fall upon the ‘least of us,’ and ‘those who are not you,’ is on your heads.

It is so nice to no longer believe in heaven or hell. No one can hold that over my head anymore to control me. I’m free to call evil, evil and good, good. Men who claim to speak for God are full of shit.

Even though politically Christians are threatening to rain down a firestorm of fascist shit upon us all, I currently am breathing the free air. For mercy’s sake, I hope we do not elect that evil lying motherfucker so we can finally move forward away from a system of guilt, shame, and fear into a world where we all truly look out for each other.

Amen